Welcome Amanda Dear! Life is so crazy and unpredictable isn't it? I have lived by myself for almost 6 years!! Then here I am living in my cousin's house with his wife,baby and dog. They are awesome though... Sometimes we will feel like were not moving or we've taken a few steps back...when really maybe we are preparing for something amazing! For example, now I can save up my money and go to PARIS!!! (exhale)
I am glad to hear of your new endeavors Amanda...I know something will turn out for you, and whatever doesn't go the way you wished, just wasn't the best thing for you. As my Aunt tells me, "God has another watering hole waiting for you just around the bend"
Friday was very hard. I had a work meeting and I actually almost got fired last week. I never saw it coming. Problems that I didnt know of and they almost got rid of me. I am so thankful that they gave me a chance to respond instead of them making a rash decision without knowing the truth. I know a lot of people from the outside would probably think I am better off with another position but there is so much uncertainty in my life right now emotionally,mentally and physically that I dont think its the right time to change my position. I love those kids. So I need to do what I do for the children and God... Plus, it will help me learn to not feel so compelled to explain myself to others or to feel beaten up by someone elses words. After the meeting I thought "if only I could tell her why..." or I wanted to just stand up for myself...Im trying to find the balance of when to speak up and when to know that no matter what you say it wont change a persons attitude or judgements. It simply shouldnt matter. As long as I know I am trying my best and looking to God for guidance, why give another that much power over me. Stressin' over what to say to them to "help them see". Whatever! (excuse my lil' pep talk for myself;) Well I hear there are perogi's upstairs so I gotta run.;) I love you girls! !!